Post-PET Scan and Chemotherapist Vists

Well, I had the PET Scan on Thursday afternoon. The San went really well and I liked getting it done at the Toledo Clinic, since the machine is newer and can do a little better job of scanning. I didn't have to put my arms above my head and get my elbows hitting the bottom of the Tube when they moved me in and out. The only down side was that I had the appointment at 1:30p instead of the morning like I usually do these types appointments, so from now on I'll make sure that the PET , MRI Scans, etc... are scheduled for the morning and I don't have to wait for long to get back to my regular schedule.
I go to see the Oncology Chemotherapist this afternoon and I'm sorta apprehensive about this appointment. I know that I will be facing at least 1 or 2 more Chemotherapy Treatment, but I'm concerned with what will happen next; especially after completing Chemotherapy and Radiation Treatments in April of this year, then finding out that I had lesions on my Lungs, that was not there with my last PET Scan in October 2007. I was feeling really proud of myself that I had jumped through 28 Radiation sessions and continuous Chemotherapy. Then getting the news that the Cancer had seemingly metastasized and went into my lungs and formed lesions, this just blew the wind outta my sails and made me feel like I had lost the battle and was slipping backwards, ever so slowly, then my Chemotherapsit came up with the new course of action with me doing 6 weeks of Chemotherapy and taking 2 weeks off between the 4th and 5th treatment, so the PET Scan could be done.
My biggest concern is that I will become the life-timer who spends the rest of my natural life cycle on going between Chemotherapy and Radiation Treatments to combat the disease and end up with no complete solution to the problem. I plan on asking the Chemotherapist about this today, since the last time he mentioned that he would be able to help me and that I didn't have to worry about the end of life cycle. But, i still have this urge to get my things in order, like one friend told me this is the "Pregnant Woman Syndrome", where towards the end of the Pregnancy the woman just wants to get it over with and have the baby and get on with it. I haven't got any type of arrangements set for the final days of my Life Cycle, but I've been sorta pointing this off, since I really don't want to face that right now.
Yes, I have a will which stipulates my wishes for the State of Ohio's Probate System, but it is out dated and was done when I was married about 9 years ago and one lawyer told that I could just add a codicil to it which would update my wishes and let me stipulate who I wished to be the Executor of my Estate and how I wanted my assets distributed in a timely manner. I already have a codicil stipulating that I want to be cremated, since I cannot see the sense behind spending money on a box and a plot to put my body until it decays. If my Executor cannot find a little room on the bookshelf for me then I guess I really not liked that well and they can decide what to do with me.
Anyhow, enough with the depressing stuff and time to concentrate on getting through today and finding out what the Chemotherapist says. I have found some information on the web about the correlation between Vitamin D Deficiency and Cancer and I'm interested in seeing what the Chemotherapist says about this.
Well until the next blog update, I'm ending this here, before I get into the ongoing rant and whine mode, which doesn't do me any good.