Vacation from Chemotherapy and Life

Well, this is the 1st week of my 2 week vacation from Chemo and I've been doing some thinking about what has been happening lately in my life and I've found myself at the cross-roads of a conundrum.
This started last week while I was going through my cycle of getting up, going to work, coming home and sleeping a tremendous amount of time on Monday and Tuesday, then come Wednesday I felt like Rip Van Winkle and out of place. The akwardness slowly wore off as I tried to accomplish a few things around the house and such, but it still hung around like a new friend bugging the crap out of me. Finally, on Thursday I went to my last weekly treatment then came home and while I was on the laptop, Carmen informed me that the Car had been hooked up to a Tow Truck, YES!!! The Damn Car was repossessed by the Bank, which I was getting ready to call. So, now I have to play their stupid little game and wait for them to tell me what it will take to get the car back. Not a happy afternoon for me.
On Friday, I picked up a rental car, which I really didn't want to do; but I needed a ride to work and Carmen needed to run a few errands. I would've called my Eldest Sister, but she is busy with my Mom who just had surgery on her Right Hip. Mom is doing well and is recovering nicely, she is due to be released from the Hospital this weekend.
This week, I've been getting up going to work and coming home and thinking deeply about the things that have happened to me. I've found more questions then answers and still I am not sure I am heading in the right direction at this point. I plan on going to my Credit Union on Thursday to see about refinancing the Car Loan, which I'm personally not lookking forward to any rejection. Filing for Bankruptcy is the last thing I want to do, but if I have to will do so.
I have found myself questioning my personal life a little more and whether I should continue down the road with some uncertainity of just stop and take stock in what I have at hand. This is undecided as of now, but I know I must do some thing soon. The relationship that I have developed with Carmen is not questioned, it is stable and seems to be the one thing that I can count on at this time. This is the thing that is keeping me going at this time and I know Carmen is a strong woman and even though she is dealing with a lot on her personal plate, she is doing quite well.
I saw the Nurse Practioner this afternoon who said that I look good and seem to be doing quite well for everything that I've gone through so far. So, at least someone thinks I'm fine. Well enough with this, I've wasted some more your time with reading this. Thanks for stoppping by and we'll leave the light for y'all.

Chemotherapy - Week 2 Round 8

OK, so the 2nd week has been uneventful in the Chemo Treatment Department and the after effects so far have been minimal. Only difference that I've seen is I've not been constipated on Friday and I started having solid bowel movements, so I monitored it and when i got back from Dinner it started to go to a looser stool then normal, so I took a teaspoon of Paregoric and that settled everything down. Friday afternoon was hectic to say the least with me having a CT Scan of my lower abdomen, so the Urologist can see what is happening there, then went to Dinner with my Mom and Older Sister, Grocery Store after wards then home.
Saturday I was able to sleep in and did some work around the house on getting a computer setup more and completing it, but since Ian, my son was not allowed to be on it right away; because he uttered the F-Word in school when the Teacher asked him what was wrong. It turns out that he had a headache and he blurted out "F*&k, I've got a Headache" which got him into detention for 2 days. I of course counselled him on not using that word in school and instructed him to say other words, such as Darn or Shoot. I should have the PC completely back to Factory with the Antivirus/Firewall and his game installed on it.
Carmen of course was concerned that I was upset with her for not having a job and I had to reassure her that I was not and that I had got a chill while in the basement looking at Ian's Computer and that was why I was laying down and I wasn't that hungry. She took Noah, Mitch and Noah's Girlfriend and her brother to the Mall to hang out and came back home. When she came into the bedroom, she crawled into bed with me and we cuddled and watched Burn After Reading, which was an off beat comedy starring George Clooney,Frances McDormand, John Malkovich and Brad Pitt and host of others. She went and picked up the Kids from the Mall and brought Mitch back to the House and he was wired on a Chocolate Explosion Latte, so it was fun watchng him bouncing around.
Well, my taxes have been filed and I'm waiting to get the refunds, so I can pay on some bills and get them under control a little more. Work will be the usual of never ending customers calling in to complain and get educated on saef browsing, antivirus and spyware removal.