Vacation from Chemotherapy and Life

Well, this is the 1st week of my 2 week vacation from Chemo and I've been doing some thinking about what has been happening lately in my life and I've found myself at the cross-roads of a conundrum.
This started last week while I was going through my cycle of getting up, going to work, coming home and sleeping a tremendous amount of time on Monday and Tuesday, then come Wednesday I felt like Rip Van Winkle and out of place. The akwardness slowly wore off as I tried to accomplish a few things around the house and such, but it still hung around like a new friend bugging the crap out of me. Finally, on Thursday I went to my last weekly treatment then came home and while I was on the laptop, Carmen informed me that the Car had been hooked up to a Tow Truck, YES!!! The Damn Car was repossessed by the Bank, which I was getting ready to call. So, now I have to play their stupid little game and wait for them to tell me what it will take to get the car back. Not a happy afternoon for me.
On Friday, I picked up a rental car, which I really didn't want to do; but I needed a ride to work and Carmen needed to run a few errands. I would've called my Eldest Sister, but she is busy with my Mom who just had surgery on her Right Hip. Mom is doing well and is recovering nicely, she is due to be released from the Hospital this weekend.
This week, I've been getting up going to work and coming home and thinking deeply about the things that have happened to me. I've found more questions then answers and still I am not sure I am heading in the right direction at this point. I plan on going to my Credit Union on Thursday to see about refinancing the Car Loan, which I'm personally not lookking forward to any rejection. Filing for Bankruptcy is the last thing I want to do, but if I have to will do so.
I have found myself questioning my personal life a little more and whether I should continue down the road with some uncertainity of just stop and take stock in what I have at hand. This is undecided as of now, but I know I must do some thing soon. The relationship that I have developed with Carmen is not questioned, it is stable and seems to be the one thing that I can count on at this time. This is the thing that is keeping me going at this time and I know Carmen is a strong woman and even though she is dealing with a lot on her personal plate, she is doing quite well.
I saw the Nurse Practioner this afternoon who said that I look good and seem to be doing quite well for everything that I've gone through so far. So, at least someone thinks I'm fine. Well enough with this, I've wasted some more your time with reading this. Thanks for stoppping by and we'll leave the light for y'all.