Depression and Apprehension

Well, this has been a week of depression and apprehension for me. I've been waking up depressed in the mornings and once I get to work I start to go through the usual job routine, then sometime after lunch I start to feel apprehensive about going to Cleveland Clinic and what they will actually tell me.

I've been dreading this, since I've been thinking too much about the trip and what they're going to do for further testing or what game plan I'm going to follow. If I get into any drug or treatment trials, then I will most definitely be checking into doing them here in Toledo, since traveling back and forth will not be a very viable situation for me.

With the weather finally starting to warm up I've noticed again, that the neropathy in my hands and feet his lessening up a little, but with it still being cold in the monrings when I go to work, it still reminds me of the downside. I do try to carefully walk so that I trip and break something, since this would really piss me off if I broke an arm or leg and have to deal with that on top of everything else.

Anyhow, more on the personal side, Carmen and I cultivate the patch in the front yard last Saturday and she planted a few ferns along the front of the house. She also did more work on the flower garden area yesterday and is planning on planting some flower and I think vegtables when the weather stays warm enough for them to be planted.