Downtime Between Treatments

Well this week is the "off" week from the Clinical Trial. I have a CAT Scan scheduled for Friday Evening and I am still waiting for Dr. Heath's Nurse to call and confirm my Appointment with the Dr. Heath for Thursday.
Mean time, I say Dr. Jeff Forquer at the Hickman Cancer Center at Flower Hospital to go over my 6 month review with him. I asked him to look at the last CAT Scan from Karmanos, since the report noted a lymph node has increased in size and was pressing up against my bladder, thus causing me to having the urge to urinate more frequently and in some cases uncontrollably. I have taken the necessary precautions to prevent embarassing moments in my daily life. I wanted Dr. Forquer to see if I could do more radiation therapy to help reduce the lymph node
Well, I got the call from Dr. Forquer last night and he said that the lymph node is in the lower part of the Sacrum, Tail Bone Area, and it is in the same area that I had Radiation previously and it probably would be more harmful then helpful if I was to have more Radiation Treatment in the Area, so I mentioned to him that I have noticed in the last couple of days my urge and frequency to Urinate situation has gotten better and that I am not getting up 2 or 3 times at night and now I'm getting up 1 or 2 times; which are good signs that something is happening in a positive way. Dr. Forquer and I agreed that I could call them up and come back if I had any questions that I needed answered.
In the meantime, I have been thinking about what has been happening in the last few months, both from a personal and medical view point and I have not slept to well the last few nights. September is National Ovarian Cancer Awareness Month, which means increased advertisements of the symptoms and treatments available; but I suppose education is wonderful for those who want to learn and take action. My problem with this educational stuff being broadcast is, how many people who hear about it actually do anything about it? How many of these individuals, who has heard the about it and wants to do something about it, cannot do anything about it; since they have no insurance or afraid to see if they have Cancer? I don't know for sure. I know Carmen and I have chatted about this and she has several of the symptoms, but she is without health insurance at this time and I worry for her. Ok, that's the medical view point on the topic of Cancer, Ovarian Awareness Month. Personally, I feel good and have become more comfortable with Doctors, Nurses, and the general public telling me that I don't like like the "A-Typical" Cancer Patient; who exhibits the side-effect symptoms that most have. The Side-effect symptoms are Nausea, V omitting, Weakness, and Severe Fatigue. I do deal with fatigue in a minor issue and deal with as it hits me, but at the sametime I know it doesn't help when I stay up later then I should to get things in order, then having to get up at 4am to get into work by 6am, 4 days a week. The 10-hour shifts at work are not bad, but there are some days that I'll go home after working, eat dinner, then go to bed. Yesterday was one of these days, but instead of sleeping through the night, I only slept at most an hour then got up until around 11:30pm. I woke up this morning and felt good, but now that I've been at work for a little over 2 hours, I'm starting to fell fatigued. Lunch will be at 10am and I'll see how I am feeling then and buy a soda if need to.
The other thing that people do not take into account, is the person who has the cancer and their mental state. By this, I mean does the person suffer depression, ie: every day blues or severe depression that requires treatment? I will admit to being depressed at times, but I tend to start to get myself involved with other activities that helps to keep me active mentally and if this doesn't work, then I surround myself with some comedy or friends.
Well, for now I am just fatigued and dealing with it on day to day basis. and waiting for the CAT Scan results.